| Beautiful Life |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|04:42 pm] |
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| | Lindsay Lohan A Beautiful Life | ] |
Its been a very long time since I did any kind of writing in this. Writing I feel is very therepuatic. This past weekend I went to Boston to visit my friend Jen. Arriving in NYC was pure pleasure to board that bus and go somewhere by myself took off alot on my shoulder. It took me four hours to get there but I had my music at my side. I know right now as hard as life gets the amazing it gets. ill post later |
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| IM IN LOVE |
[Sep. 3rd, 2005|12:02 pm] |
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| | Sharissa I Got Love | ] |
IM IN LOVE!!!!! |
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| HATE CHRIS |
[Nov. 28th, 2004|02:44 am] |
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I hate chris, i honestly do, his ex is still stuck on him obviously cuz it was his 1st. The two of them need to move on. Its pathetic. Chris is gonna break every guys heart like he broke mine. Hes gonna be alone till he gets Andy back to think he can get into anutha rel he was pathetic. Hes gonna push every guy till andy comes back, all that shit andy said 2 me was a lie he wanted chris out of my life well he got his way. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 14th, 2004|02:54 am] |
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Don't Know Much
Look at this face
I know the years are showing
Look at this life
I still don't know where it's going
I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know.
Look at these eyes
They've never seen what mattered
Look at this dream,
So beaten and so battered
I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know.
So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much I've never broken through
And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth I've ever known
Is me and you
Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation
I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know
I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all I need to know
I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be all there is to know |
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| I Miss You...... |
[Nov. 12th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
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| | Mariah Carey Whenever You Call | ] |
Ok yesterday was the 1 yr anniversary of Patricias passing. God words cant explian how much I miss you my love. You were a lost soul for a 35 yo girl but u were also my inspiration, my angel. When there was darkness in your life you shown everyone else the light. I miss her so much. Id do anything to bring her back. You dont realize how much you miss someone until there gone. Today is the 1yr anniversary that I met Quentin a year ago, but im keeping that to myself. So much has happenned this year that I dont think he even cares about when we met, but I do, i fell in love with him and one year later its so hard to get over it still.I stil miss him so much. He was a perfect example of what I wish my boy was. Kind, gentle, beautiful, understanding, romantic, funny and so many other words that would describe him. I still miss you. Right now I need to concentrate on getting myself two other jobs but I miss the affection of another man. I feel like im goin crazy, i really need the affection of anutha guy. Im contemplating getting eye surgery, is that going to solve my problem with men prob not. I met Q in the club last weekend and i called twice and he hasnt even called back and it kinda hurts. Oh well. I met CJ but were just friends. I miss casey. A part of me even misses Chris. Ill always remember that part of you so tender. I started talking to Kelvin today but thats honestly not goin no where. I like Anthony but were just friends, i even like Anthonys friend Hakim hes so nice. I had to get rid of Demetrius and Adrien from my life they just promised me shit they couldnt fulfill. Demetrius from queens he neva calls and i like him. None of this is goin no where. Ive given up on the search for friends love and affection. I dont get it. Why are gay guys and love so complicated. Am i ugly or do i talk to much. I thought meetin a guy at a club is cool but its not. Someone please bring me someone. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2004|10:03 pm] |
Closure
[Intro]
Ooh, babe
Baby, oooh
Oh, baby
Oh, baby
Oh, baby, baby, baby, baby
When did you stop lovin' me
What did I do so wrong
That you had to leave
When did you stop wanting me
No letters, no call
Boy, you know I needy
Baby this thing is to get told
On my mind, my body, and soul
1 - Can't get you out of system
Out of my head
Out of my future
Out of my bed
I hear your name
I see your face
I lose all composure
I need to see you one more time
I need closure
Ooh, baby, baby
Can we go somewhere, baby
And talk about all the things
I did to stress you out
I won't be satisfied
'Till I understand why
Why you ain't here in my life
Can you just give me that much, yeah
Don't leave me hanging without a crutch
Repeat 1
Oooh, closure
Ooh, why
That is the question
Everyday I ask myself
Since you went away, baby
I wasn't perfect
Tell me where you
You said everyday I love you
Repeat 1
Closure
Oooh, closure (I need to know why did you leave me baby)
oooh, closure (Why did you go away)
Oooh, closure (Why did you pick up and leave me)
I need to see you one more time
I need closure |
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| No More...... |
[Nov. 3rd, 2004|07:49 pm] |
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| | Allure The Story | ] |
I can honestly say im fine right now. The story goes you meet boy and boy breaks your heart. Well Chris is out of my life and I can say i truly tried and tried. He was a coward, if he wanted to get rid of me so bad he could of said so then ask me to spend the night with him and then ask me if he could have sex with his personal trainer while i was there, sorrie hes fucked up and he needs to get his life together also. He was worlds away from Quentin. Looking back Quentin was an amazing gentlemen. He was such a beautiful person who took you for you. He wasnt stuck on his past. I thought that Chris could be that boy I was looking for but I was wrong. Every weekend I waste my time on meeting some new boy. Well they always turn out to be losers who never talk to you or try to hang out with you again. Well Chris was one of those boys that I regret meeting. Right now I wanna do me. I got offered a job at Icings and i have an interview on Friday and im gonna take it. With the money I make there and at the bookstore Ill use it to further my dance lessons at BDC, take singing lessons, and save money to get my laser eye surgery, and try to look at beauty schools. With enough money saved ill get the fuck out of long island, hopefully move to new york city wit my best friend Anthony. Life starts now. I dont have time to find a boy right now. I wanna save up money for a makeover. Boys dont fit nowhere in these plans. Right now i wanna club, drink, have fun wit my boy anthony, sniff a lil here and there, hehe, go back to my wild clubbing days. MMM booty calls would be nice too. Im over tryin so hard to find a boy, let the fun begin, FUCK THE BOIS!!! sorrie andy if ur reading this i need to get the aggression out FUCK CHRIS!!!!!! |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2004|04:33 pm] |
"The Story"
Oh, no, no, no, no, oh
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh
He was a memory I can't erase
Like a dream come true from out of the night
When I first saw you our eyes met face to face
I knew right then and there that it would be right
1 - Just when I thought I was over love
Baby you stepped right into my life
Will we be lovers or just the best of friends
Or will the story just come to an end
Was I just a victim of circumstance
Or just a fool who fell too quickly in love
But when I saw you, there was someone else
And I knew that I could not
Could not be - Not be second best
No, no,no,no, no
Repeat 1
(Chapter 1)
Momma told me when a boy meets boy
(Chapter 2)
That you see rainbows, stars shining in your world
(Chapter 3)
But when it's over the writing's on the wall
Don't you keep cryin' no, no
Just keep on
Just keep moving on
Repeat 1 until fade |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2004|04:03 pm] |
Wasted Time
You rarely notice but I hang on your every word
Everything you say
You are much too busy to notice me
You turn and walk away
Into another's arms hopeless ashamed
I wish I could hold you that way
Brokenhearted I dream for you to notice me
Wasted time on loving you wasted time
Wasted time on someone
Who won't love you as much as I
As much as I as much as I as much as I
In my fantasy you are asleep beside me
I feel you breathe
If only I could be there for you
The one that you make love to
Wasted time on loving you wasted time
Wasted time on someone
Who won't love you as much as I
As much as I as much as I as much as I
You rarely notice but I hang on your every word
Everything you say
You are much too busy to notice me
You turn and walk away
Into another's arms hopeless ashamed
I wish I could hold you that way
Brokenhearted I dream for you to notice me |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|07:41 pm] |
Hes Out Of My Life
He's out of my life
He's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
He's out of my life
So I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned that love needs expression |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 2nd, 2004|06:07 pm] |
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| | Gabrielle Sunshine | ] |
This song is dedicated to my best friend Anthony, Anthony words can;t describe, i love you, your an amazing person. Thanks for telling me to leave a certian persons life.
Sunshine
Made a wish
I can dream
I can be what i want to be
Not afraid
To live life
And fulfill my fantasies
I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came you were like
(chorus: sunshine through my window
That's what you are, my shining star
Sunshine)
Making me feel i'm on top of the world
Telling me i'll go far)
Reaching out, for new heights
You inspired me to try
Felt the magic inside
And felt that i could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
Cause when you came you were like
(chorus)
You are the calm, when i am the storm
You are the breeze, that carries me on
When i set adrift, you anchor me
You're there for me
(chorus x5) |
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[Oct. 31st, 2004|05:49 pm] |
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| | Allure | ] |
"All Cried Out"
All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don't know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
'Cause I'm tired of your lies
All I needed was a simple hello
But the traffic was so noisy that you did not hear me cry
( I ) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
(And you) You leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out, over you.
(112)
Cryin' over you, yeah
Never wanted to see things your way
Had to go astray
For why I was such a fool (Why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home?
How could I be so wrong?
(Allure)
Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance of these flames
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (So sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected
( I ) I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me)
How was I to know
You would weaken so easily
( I ) I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)
Over you
( I ) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you
(112)
You left me so confused
(Allure)
Now I'm all cried out
Now I'm all cried out
Over you |
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[Oct. 30th, 2004|12:54 am] |
"Cup Of Coffee"- i love this song. i love the band garbage, i can relate 2 this
You told me you don't love me
Over a cup of coffee
And I just have to look away
A million miles between us
Planets crash into dust
I just let it fade away
I'm walking empty streets
Hoping we might meet
I see your car parked on the road
The light on at your window
I know for sure that you're home
But I just have to pass on by
So no, of course, we can't be friends
Not while I'm still this obsessed
I guess I always knew the score
This is how our story ends
I smoke your brand of cigarettes
And pray that you might give me a call
I lie around on bed all day just staring at the walls
Hanging round bars at night
Wishing I had never been born
And give myself to anyone who wants to take me home
So no, of course, we can't be friends
Not while I still feel like this
I guess I always knew the score
This is where our story ends
You left behind some clothes
My belly summersaults when I pick them off the floor
My friends all say they're worried
I'm looking far too skinny
I've stopped returning all their calls
And no, of course, we can't be friends
Not while I'm still so obsessed
I want to ask where I went wrong
But don't say anything at all
It took a cup of coffee
To prove that you don't love me |
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[Oct. 30th, 2004|12:52 am] |
"Nobody Loves You"
Watching the days slip by so fast
Knowing our fate has long been cast
Working our fingers to the bone
Cause nobody loves you when you're gone, gone, gone, gone
Coughing up feeling just for you
To find something real to hold on to
But there is a hole inside my heart
Where all of my love comes pouring out
You know you'll always be my man
But grab yourself sweetness where you can
Cause sooner or later we're gonna die
Left to the dogs under the sky
I cracked a piece of broken glass
I cracked a piece of broken glass
Coughing up feeling just for you
To find something real to hold on to
But there is a hole inside my heart
Where waves of my love come tumbling out
You say that all the good is gone
That I have forgotten who I am
Free as a bird
Wild as the wind
But somehow I cannot let you in |
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[Oct. 30th, 2004|12:43 am] |
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"Take Me Away"
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
[CHORUS]
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around it
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
[CHORUS]
I'm going nowhere (on and on and)
I'm getting nowhere (on and on and on)
Take me away
I'm going nowhere (on and off and off and on)
(and off and on)
[CHORUS]
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2004|10:20 pm] |
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Breakdown
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
Break, break down, steady breakin' me on down
You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me
[Chorus:]
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry
So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
[Chorus]
Yeah, c'mon
Yeah, c'mon, c'mon
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll roll along
Break break down
Gotta get control
Roll roll roll along
Steady breakin' me on down
Roll roll along
It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crucial situation wrackin' my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it
Forget it
I've been feelin' like you're breakin' me down
Kickin' me around
Stressin' me out
I think I better go and get out and let me
Release some stress (stress)
Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Oh, i just wanna maintain
Yeah, when you feel the pressure's on
But nevertheless
Krayzie won't fall
It's over
It's endin' here, here
[Chorus] |
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[Oct. 29th, 2004|10:16 pm] |
Kelly Price
Mirror, Mirror (2000)
You Should've Told Me
I wouldn't call in the midnight hour
I wouldn't tuck you in and turn the nightlight out
You would walk through the door and I wouldn't say hi
I would walk out the door and wouldn't say bye-bye
It's funny that I never thought about it that way
I never knew the things that I did not say
But you were lonely and you were hungry
And I was living in my own world
Thinking I'm a perfect lady
You should've told me
I wasn't small enough
You should've told me
I didn't call enough
But you led me on
And kept me going
And we never should've wasted this time
You should've told me
I wasn't wild enough
You should've told me
I didn't smile enough
What you had in my mind
Made me lose my mind
And we never should've wasted this time
I was in bed I'd help you take your clothes off
When it was time for work didn't see you off
When your tense didn't give a massage
I never told you I think you're hot
It's funny I never thought about it that way
Never knew the things I did not say
But you were lonely and you were hungry
And I was living in my own world
Thinking I'm a perfect lady
You should've told me
I wasn't small enough
You should've told me
I didn't call enough
But you led me on
And kept me going
And we never should've wasted this time
You should've told me
I wasn't wild enough
You should've told me
I didn't smile enough
What you had in my mind
Made me lose my mind
And we never should've wasted this time
When you thought you had to lie
Why didn't you come and tell me why?
Didn't you see those tears I cried?
Oh why?
You should've told me
I wasn't small enough
You should've told me
I didn't call enough
But you led me on
And kept me going
And we never should've wasted this time
You should've told me
I wasn't wild enough
You should've told me
I didn't smile enough
What you had in my mind
Made me lose my mind
And we never should've wasted this time |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2004|10:01 pm] |
"My Life"
Oooh
(My life, my life, my life, my life)
Chorus
If you looked in my life
And see what I've seen...
If you looked in my life
And see what I've seen...
(My life, my life, my life, my life)
Verse 1
Life can be only what you make it
When you're feelin down
You should never fake it
Say what's on your mind
And you'll find in time
That all the negative energy
It would all cease
And you'll be at peace with yourself
You won't really need no one else
Except for the man up above
Because he'll give you love
(My life, my life, my life, my life)
If you looked into my life
Chorus
Verse 2
Take your time
Baby don't you rush a thing
Don't you know, I know
We all are struggling
I know it is hard
But we will get by
And if you don't believe in me
Just believe in "He"
Cause he'll give you peace of mind
Yes he will
And you'll see the sunshine
For real, yes you would
And you'll get to free your mind
And things will turn out fine
Oh, I know that things will turn out fine
Yes they would, yes they would
Chorus(repeat until end) |
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[Oct. 29th, 2004|09:58 pm] |
"Be Happy"
(vs.1)
How can i love somebody else
If i can't love myself enough to know
When it's time,
Time to let go
Sing
(chorus)
All i really want
Is to be happy
And to find a love that's mine
It would be so sweet
(repeat)
(vs.2)
I ask for the sign
From the sweet lord above
I know the answer is in front of me
But when you think you're in love
You only see what you wanna see
And all i see is me for you
And you for me
Oh i cannot hide the way i feel inside
(no i don't know why)
I don't know why but every day i wanna cry
(every day i wanna cry)
If i give you one more try
To there rules, will you abide
And if i mean anything to you
Would it make everything all right
(chorus)
I just wanna be so, so, happy
But the answer lies in me
I do believe
That we can be happy
I said i wanna be happy, yeah
(vs.3)
Life is too short
To be tryin to play some games
Now take some time and think about
If it's really worth losing me
Why must it be this way
Why do you have to play with my mind
All the time
Help me sing it
All i really want is for me to be happy
Ohhh, just help me sing it
All i really want is for me to be happy
Yeahhhhhhh
All i really want is for me to be happy
Oh, you know i wanna be happy, yeah, yeah
~repeat through chorus~
I don't wanna have to worry about nothin no more
Said i wanna be, said i wanna be, said i wanna be
(chorus) |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 29th, 2004|09:54 pm] |
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"No More Drama"
So tired, tired of this drama
No more, no more
I wanna be free
I'm so tired, so tired
Broken heart again
Another lesson learn
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
Cause I can guarantee
That I'll be fine
No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No one's gonna make me hurt again
Why'd I play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn't be around
Or maybe I like the stress
Cause I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don't wanna cry no more
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (no more game messin with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
Nooone's gonna make me hurt again
No more tears (no more tears, I'm tired of cryin everynight)
No more fears (no more fears, I really don't wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
I don't ever wanna hurt again
Wanna speak my mind, wanna speak my mind
Uh, it feel so good
When you let go
Of all the drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain
Free from all the game
Free from all the stress
So find your happiness
I don't know
Only God knows where the story ends for me
But I know where the story begins
It's up to us to choose
Whether we win or loose
And I choose to win
No more pain (no more pain)
No more game (tired of your playin' game with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No more, no more, No more, no more
No more tears (no more tears, no more cryin every night)
No more fears (no more waking be up in the morning)
No drama, no more in my life
No more drama, no more drama
No more drama, no more drama
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
NO MORE DRAMA
No more drama in my life
So tired, tired of this drama |
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